I Will Kill You: A Psychological Thriller by Halo Scot

Author:Halo Scot [Scot, Halo]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: 2022-08-07T16:00:00+00:00

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My Love Is Forever

Erin

Dear Sandy,

I’m sorry. You don’t deserve my rage. Or maybe you do, but I deserve yours, too.

This is a shitty situation. I don’t blame you, and I hope you don’t blame me. Twins are tough. Poverty is brutal. Cancer is cruel. We were never meant to last, Sandy. Life has always been against us. Cursed from the start, we made the best of impossible, and I’m glad we grew up together, that we survived together till now.

Though we don’t have much longer together. You are an amazing father, and you will find love again. You will make someone else happy, and they will make you happy, too. My life is over, but yours is not, and our girls’ lives are just beginning. Live for them if you can’t live for yourself. Love them if you can’t love yourself.

Do you know Kurt Vonnegut? He’s my favorite author. If you ever need to remember my soul, my spark, my smile, my strength, read one of his books. In Slaughterhouse-Five, he likens time to a mountain, to an unchanging and immortal constant. I love this interpretation, this hopeful truth, that time just is, and we move through it, around it, over it, under it, that we are always dead and alive and unborn and stardust, all at once, all the time.

What I’m trying to say, Sandy, is our spirit is eternal. Somewhere, somewhen, there’s a version of you and a version of me, young and in love, perched on a rooftop, praying to a sunset, living forever in a photograph. But that was them, and this is us, and we’ll never be them again. It was beautiful when it was beautiful, and it was ugly when it was ugly, and it’s over, Sandy. It’s over, and you must let go.

All my love, always,

Erin xoxo

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